End of July Farewell

So, I don't really know what to post about, but i feel like I should, since it's the last day of July. So here's another poem:

Love

If the world pulls us apart,

where can I find you?

If a wave can be found in a seashell,

can I find you in the ocean?

If people aren't trustworthy,

can I trust you?

Will you tell someone my secrets,

or give away my things?

Will you say things you don't mean,

or always say you love me?

If our hearts are broken,

will we always stick together?

Will our love prevail,

or will we fall apart?

I want us to be together forever,

I believe in you.

Dream come true?

I got asked to join a band yesterday... While I've always dreamed of being a singer, i have terrible stage fright. It's my uncles band... He plays drums, and i think there are two other people, but they don't have enough singers, so my aunt asked if me and my sister would want to sing. I know the whole "face your fears" thing, but when i sing, and am scared, my voice gets squeaky and high pitched. I'm fine singing in choir, because there are other people singing with me. But otherwise, I'm not. When i auditioned for my sophomore year of choir, i couldn't even sing the song i prepared because i kept screwing it up so badly, so i ended up singing happy birthday and even screwing that up. it was bad. I don't want to pass up an opportunity like this though. How often do you get asked to join a band, even if it's made up of old Mormon dudes?

Let's talk about boys

Do you ever listen to a song, or read a poem, and feel like, it perfectly describes you and some guy? Like after a break up your might listen to songs like "My happy ending" by Avril Lavigne, or "Bring me to life" by Evanescence, and "Rolling in the deep" by Adele. Songs that are sad and depressing, but kinda totally describe how you feel. But if you find someone you like, or even love again, your gonna listen to love songs, maybe constantly. Now, i know not everyone is like this, but, some are, especially us hormone crazed teens. So when I'm in a relationship, i tend to do all those wacky things, and i find myself writing poetry left and right. Now, i only once ever wrote poetry and gave it to the guy. HUGE mistake. he showed every person known to mankind the poems, even though i told him they were ultra private. so now i don't do that. if i write a poem about a guy, i don't make it that ovbious. and i don't give it to him. and tell him it's about him. but, this next poem is about the best boyfriend i ever had. what he meant to me, and what it meant to lose him.

SORROW

They hold each other

and everything else melts away

the world is gone

no more senses

just each other

it is freeing

and scary

and fleeting

because suddenly the world jerks them back

to a place of horror

a place of hurt

and a place of betrayal.

So for that one instant they were able

to have each others strength

comfort

and warmth.

But sorrow does not like to be cheated.

so they let go

and part their separate ways.

Drops of Jupiter-Train

this song, for whatever reason, reminds me of us